Friday, May 8, 2009

Living the good life

Not much to blob about. Things end up on Twitter, and what's the point of blogging them later? The things I tweet in the sperm spur of the moment, however... I need a twitter muzzle.

For the first time in fourteen years I'm not taking a prescription crazy med. Along the way I'd been on Prozac, Luvox, Zoloft, Lexapro, Wellbutrin, Effexor and finally Celexa. I think consuming all those drugs over all that time permanently altered my brain chemistry, and not in a good way. No doubt they helped me, especially early on when things went to hell in my life for a while.

Life's not a living hell anymore, and it hasn't been for years. To the contrary, my life is fanfuckingtastic.

Why me? I've done despicable things. I have not earned this happiness. No matter, I'll keep it while it's here.

So I'm going to give it a go, to see if I can lick my demon with exercise, diet, semi-retirement, and lots of sex (a particularly fine benefit of not being medicated).

In the meantime, I've been a lot loopy lately. I've probably acted inappropriately. Hell, I went shopping the other day and bought stuff!

I'm not necessarily apologizing by that admission. I'm just sayin'.

I'm hoping that a prescription-free me, Kimberly, can be like my moniker, the smooth un-turbulent air that jetliners surf.

Aside from being an occasional asshole (ok, frequent) all seems well so far. Some things are way better (Hotter. Than. A. June. Bride.); other things concern me (buried things are bubbling up); and the rest is too early to tell.

Truthfully, I suspect it could get bumpy ahead. I might dredge up a lot of shit. And I'll probably blog it.

Consider yourself warned. And please, friends, talk me down if I get ridiculous.

11 comments:

Ting said...

Good luck! I hope things stay positive and stable. There is nothing else like getting your libido back!

Trop said...

I never lost it, it was always late to the party.

weese said...

This is an excellent endeavor.
I think with this fantastic like you have.. you'll get through this just fine.
Tho some crazy antics might be entertaining...so i will pull up a chair.

Trop said...

So true Weese. It could get really crazy fun.

Syd said...

Did I just get permission to kick your ass, if you need it? [snicker]

Anonymous said...

You've got the support of many friends, and I wish you well.

Now to screen shot that you want us to slap you upside the head if need be. Oh, wait, that's NOT what you said? :)

Trop said...

Syd, you've always had that privilege.

Trop said...

Thanks PF. Yes, do smack me upside the head if I earn it.

yankeegirl said...

:)

I'm glad you're off the meds and feeling good!
Good luck keeping the meds and the demons away.

Jen said...

We are pulling for you!

Zoe said...

Wow! Good luck with that. I hope it works out for you.