No wonder few people bother to stop by.Earlier this week I finished six projects in as many days. Now there is nothing in the queue until the 23rd. I'm left with a lot of free time and it's hard to keep from being bored. It's summer and I can't stand to be indoors. The last place I want to be is sitting at a computer. So, the blog suffers.
I fill my days will a lot of exercise, including at least one hour in the pool swimming laps every weekday, and at least four miles of walking every day. I've shed about 45 pounds over the past year, and I need to lose another 25, which I'd love to accomplish by the end of 2009. I'm sick of being fat and I am driven to get rid of it. I need to be constantly moving.
All that exercise is helping me emotionally too. I'm committed to managing my depression without medication. That's a tall order. It's an even taller order when life deals you a hard blow.
I don't want to talk about it, but something horrible happened last month. The fallout is that we were trying to have a baby and now we are not. My marriage has been under some strain as a result.
We're going to be fine. Everyone is okay.
In the meantime, I'm just trying to make sense of everything. I've kind of checked-out emotionally and mentally. I've been closed off, inside my thoughts. I'm the kind of person who needs to process everything. And while all that is going on I've been too vulnerable to let anyone in, even my wife. That's what's been so hard.
I'll snap out of it, and sooner as opposed to later. In the meantime, I'll just keep on moving.
