me: sorry... got a call

YG: thats ok

me: I'm trying to figure out/debug

why results of SPSS programming don't match my spreadsheet calculations.

12:07 PM YG: that sounds fun :(

2:35 PM me: I've been grouchy

I think I'm DIVING into menopause

2:36 PM something's up with me.

I find myself wanting to be pregnant.

Like the last ticks of fertility are banging on me

YG: smile

2:37 PM me: And my mojo is through the fucking roof

YG: the pregnancy part I like- its the after infancy stage that I've had enough of

well- that's never a bad thing, lol

me: I hated being preggers.

YG: I liked it

me: I was miserable all those nine months

me: I vomited at least once every day

YG: I had really pretty easy pregnancies

and deliveries too for that matter

me: I had to be induced with Amanda

YG: I always had to be "induced" cause I never technically went into labor

But I was always really dilated

me: Oh yes

THAT hurts like hell

me: I was so glad when they pumped nubaine through my drip.

YG: yeah I had some nubaine

me: And of course I was vomiting through labor.

YG: that sucks

I never felt like that

in labor

me: And though the Dr gave me an episiotomy, I still tore

and I got the worst hemorrhoids

YG: man

me: I didn't have bladder control for days.

YG: I just remember my hips hurting so bad the last few weeks

me: Amanda was average, 6' 14"

YG: he was 9 lbs 2 oz

me: that's HUGE

me: dairy really set me off

and I could smell everything, from a mile away.

me: And here I WANT to be pregnant

What's wrong with me???

YG: thats ok

menopause does strange things to us

I admire your courage for wanting to have kids w/ Courtney

me: In my dreams, Bobby Labonte would be the father (for whom I might even consider tossing aside the turkey baster).

me: out of control mojo and all.

just sayin'

me: I'm going to ask my doctor about it

YG: about if you could get pregnant?

or about why you want to be pregnant?

me: A) If I could physically handle it, B) if genetically my eggs are still viable.

if physically I could handle it, but my eggs are not viable we'd have one of court's eggs fertilized and I'd carry the baby to term